The Story Of Our Naysa

Tonight has been a rough night. All of the things Naysa should be doing and isn't really hit me, and Ben. We've been avoiding the talk for a while now but finally tonight I just broke down, especially when he told me his feelings and worries. We mourned our losses, compared her success and lack of, we fell weak to our bottled thoughts. I can't help but feel anger and resentment yet I can't pinpoint where these feelings are directed. I feel I am nearing the edge of depression but shrug it off because I just don't have time to be depressed, to wallow in self pity. I am soon to be a single mother of an infant for 6 months with no family near to lean on for support as my husband deploys to serve his country. I'm sure the fast approaching deployment is 99% responsible for tonight but I shall see your destruction, raise you a Scarlet O'Hara and think about it tomorrow. Fiddle-Dee-Dee!