2 more...

Two more days...the day after tomorrow...my last Sunday being pregnant. It's so surreal. This has been in the future for so long now and all of the sudden it's here. I've never been so anxious/nervous/excited in my life and I swear if ONE more person tells me "oh, all new moms are anxious" I'm going to lose it! Really? Cause all new moms have their newborns go through MRIs and ultrasounds followed by brain surgery? Didn't think so. Every night and every morning since November 9th, 2010 I've said a prayer for Naysa to grow and develop healthy, for the doctors to be wrong, for her cele not to grow and if it did for no more brain to hemorrhage out. Now my prayers have changed for her to come out with a healthy cry, do well during surgery and kick this encephalocele's ass! I've tried filling the weekend with distraction but this weather is making it hard to get out. I am so thankful for the amazing friends and family I have, I don't know how I would have made it and continue to make it through without their love and support. Since we are on the topic of good friends and such, I'd like to address a recent pet peeve of mine. Benjamin and I as well as the people close to us are about to go through the hardest thing we've ever had to endure, that being said unless someone asks you about all the drama in YOUR life, keep it to yourself. Do not facebook or email me asking how things are only to go off about all of the terrible things in your life when I didn't ask about it. At this moment, I don't care and as mean as it sounds nothing but my daughter matters to me right now. Not your boyfriend or ex husband or the drama you bring on yourself. Not what some broad said about you or your money issues. If I ask you specifically about something I know is going on, then yes I am genuinely concerned and would like to be updated and make sure you're okay otherwise just keep it under wraps for a while. I'm sure there are plenty of other people who won't mind listening to your problems but myself and those close to me aren't those people right now. Thanks for understanding.