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The past two days has had me thinking a lot, about everything. As the day of her arrival gets closer, the more nervous and frustrated I get. This isn't the way having a first child should be. We should have our own home with her room painted and just waiting for her to come. We should just have the new parent jitters, not the 'will our baby make it' or 'what special needs will she have' stress. It's hard to really enjoy this pregnancy when there are so many worries, unanswered questions and just all around no way of really knowing anything. I'm so sick of this waiting game. Waiting for orders, waiting for our stuff to ship then waiting for it to actually get here, waiting for housing, waiting for Naysa which then comes with a whole new list of waits. I need a vacation but I get too uncomfortable to travel anywhere. Awesome day.