The Story Of Our Naysa

Nights like this don't come around very often but when they do they are most unwelcome. I am beyond thankful and infinitely blessed with Naysa and how well she is doing considering all she's been through, and I know that. Yet still I find myself allowing the dreaded "what if's" to cast darkness upon my heart. In 3 hours she will be 6 months old! We've come SO very far from that day of November 9th, 2010 in the Naval Hospital of Yokosuka Japan. There was no hope then and now we have nothing but. She is making great strides in development (in my opinion) but she is still about a month behind. I know I shouldn't compare her to other infants her age but how can you not? Two of my dearest friends have daughters her age and seeing them together gives me both joy and heartbreak. They are starting to crawl and roll over with no problem, both of which Naysa struggles with. I love that little girl more than life itself and I hate that she has to go through all this shit, Ben and I too for that matter. I honestly sometimes forget that she is different until she's around other babies! It's been a while since I've had a pity party so I guess I was about due, thanks for listening. I'm going to go to bed and wake up in the morning to the most beautiful baby girl in the world, be jealous :)